Beautiful Sabado!

Ok its been a week so I guess I can write again. We spent the entire day at the park and it was beautiful, sunny, and 70 degrees! I so needed the warmth of the sunlight on my face and some time in the fresh air! Although we had a great time playing with our great new friends and eating hot dogs I was filled with sadness today and not really sure why. Maybe its because its February and that means that March is coming and I am dreading the month of March because it used to be one of my favorite months because March 12 is Michael's birthday, but now not only is March 12 his birthday but March 11 is the day he died. This March 11 will be 4 years! I can't believe he has been gone that long! I haven't seen, heard, or talked to my favorite person in 4 years... wow.. thats a long time! I sure do miss him! I don't know how people deal with the loss of a loved one without the Holy Spirit. Today I had to continue to remind myself that I will see him again one day and when I do I will never have to worry about him or loose him again! What a blessing to have a Savior and to know that we will be united with our loved ones one day. My emotions are rampid and my poor little family suffers from it as I lash out at them and try to make other things the reason for my sadness. Tonight as I sit and reflect I realize that I need to actually hug them a little tighter and hold their precious bodies close to me as I go through this hard time of year because it reminds me of how we never know! I am so thankful that I have so many people to love and be loved by in my life! Through the pain and the trials life is pretty amazing and today was an example of one of those beautiful days!